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The lyrics to IF ONLY YOU KNEW speak so true to my heart. I think that’s why its my favorite song. 

Trust issues prevent me from letting people all the way in. I always have my guard up no matter how close I’ve allowed a person to get to me. I just need to be able to fully trust ONE person with my all and I’ll be straight.

Y am I the bad guy after all the ish that went on?!?!?!?!?

Im the type to see a lot, but not say much. Lately, I’ve been getting fed up with a lot of things that have been going on for a long time. I usually don’t say anything, but I’m getting tired of holding everything in, in order to keep peace. And when you HEAR family members talk about you then come smiling in your face it makes you look at things in a different light.
~Rae’

My life is so hectic right now, between school, 2 jobs, PAU, and hw idk how I’m doing it. The only thing suffering is my personal life, but I asked for this so Imma make it work.

~Rae’

Going to sleep upset only to be waken up in the middle of the night to be held…
~Rae’

People will really talk bad about you and then turn around and smile in your face. It’s expected by others, but FAM though?

Stop giving excuses and just DO it. you can fool anyone BUT yourself and your attitude sucks if you settle, even for YOU. there is always room for improvement. change is inevitable but change for good is what keeps peoples respect and admiration. childish ways and “buts” and “ifs” influence others to give up on your words. DO what you say you are going to do.. OTHERWISE do NOT talk at all. excuses are for weak, indecisive, and shallow people. your WORD is all you have, and yet you toss it around as if your word matters. Twitter, Tumblr and whatever else there is may make it LOOK like you are a certain way, but you can’t use POSTS to excuse what you do or DONT do. talk is cheap and you talk a lot of nothing. walk it, be it, live it. not for anyone BUT yourself and i promise you WILL be happy and THAT HAPPINESS WILL lead you to SUCCESS in ANYYTTHIIINNGG.

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Nights like this, I miss him the most. I refuse to give in and just act like what was done is cuu just to be held for the night. Nights like this I usually cry myself to sleep thinking of the dudes I’ve let treat my heart like it was nothing. Then once I wake up I regret ever crying and go on acting like I’ve never been hurt before.

Nights like this…